Date: Sunday, April 3, 2011
Time: 10:13 AM♥ 6 dropped a line.
I'm so confused like asjaksdjakdjsakdjaskldjaklasj
My friends are happy for me, or at least I think they are.. Someone told me that my grades aren't really satisfactory because he gets higher grades than I do. Seriously? I never wanted to compare myself to other people. I just like the feel of passing. I was able to build a bridge and get over it, honestly. My excitement did not even last for 2 hours and you'll tell me that I should stop being happy because my grades aren't sky high? Dude, I know what I can do and what I cannot. I know I'm not as smart as you are.. You do not have to crush and pull me down. And yes, tears are streaming down my face as I type this stupid blog post that I'm dedicating to you.
I thought you're my friend, you should be happy for me. You should be pulling me up, not pulling me down. You're one of the few people I trust and I cannot believe when you told me that last night. You know me, I usually ignore people's judgments. But then coming from a person whom I trust and someone that I'm really close to, it hurts as hell.. I don't really care if you were kidding (because it didn't sound like it), it still hurts. I honestly think you're turning into someone I do not know.
You know that my dad expects so much from me since he thinks I'm goody-two-shoes and I value my studies so much. My grades this semester are so much better than the last one so I was really happy to see them go up.. I cannot believe that my tiny success would be the root of something like this. Oh no, wait, it's not my grades.. You figure out what's wrong.
I'm not mad at you or anything. You know me, I just let things out then I would forget about this right after. And you know me, I dislike being plastic or anything so I'm going to make you read this in a few..
I don't want to lose you, so you have to know this.